Sleep, pleeeeeeeease!!!

Oh my god. 6 days later and I am totally shattered. This is a war zone. Even with Mother in Law to help, we are being ground down by the relentless pace of baby things. EVERYTHING is concerned with the welfare of the baby. You end up with NO TIME to do anything else. No time to eat properly, definitely no sleep, no tidying, even going to the loo is a exercise in correct timing. Get anything wrong and you end up with 2 hours of ear-piercing wailing that no amount of rocking and soothing can heal. It is FOOD NOW or you get my screaming for eternity.
Plus, I am dealing with trying to get Cat strong again. The labour and subsequent surgeryt and loss of blood have wekaneed her considerably. Physically she is porrly and emotionally, she feels she missed out as there was not time forher to bond straight after the birth. It has been soooooo tough.
Then there is the blasted issue of breast feeding. At hospital, since Cat was recovering and not able to bond or breast feed properly for three days. The midwives said it wsa ok to feed Aimee (sorry, forgot to say, that is now her name) on bottled baby milk. Of course now, she refuses anyting except a certain teat from the bottle. We did cold turkey on Tuesday. Man, that was awful. 16 hours of wailing screaming, wriggling, protesting, this kid is TOUGH! In the end we capitulated and gave her the bottle. After that - no problem. But we were gutted and emotionally wrecked by the experience.
But there is a light at the end. Cat's breast milk has come in and is copious enough to fill a bottle for one feed at a time. We could try breast later on but I think it is a gonna. But at least she is drinking mother nature's finest for some of her feeds. We also have a doula who has offered great advice. MIL still insists on helping with everything. My family help too and mny close friends have offered words of comfort and solidarity from the other dads I know.
I am so touched by the wonderful help and support from our friends and relatives.
To even get the chance to post piccies and write this blog has been a minor miracle so far. I hope and pray that things get easier and we don't make any mistakes.
We have many many more obstacles and trials to come. I am not ashamed to say that at several points this week, I havebroken down sobbing uncontrollably at the difficulty of it all. To see Cat in such poorly state, to run around like a madman warming, sterilising, mixing, nappy changing, venturing to shops to purchase more baby things, it is relentless.
I will report soon at my nextbreak on how things are going.
Off to Mothercare now...more damned nappies!!!